#jsjsjs i ranted sorry

[chaoss-incarnate]

hi everyone! i don't think people are really interested but since i started talking about a possible disability, my cane, etc, on here, i thought i might update jsjsj

SO i went to the doctors three (i think?) weeks ago, and he told me that the problems i was having were caused by bad posture and my feet are a weird shape because of me walking weird (i was not aware of this lmaooo). so he said i should start swimming (i was gonna start this week but i got super sick).

the problem. my issues are DEFINETLY not caused by the shape of my feet and poor posture. i mean, i could certainly improve my posture and do more exercise (in fact, i'm working on it, remembering to sit up straight, doing stretching/yoga usually once a day, etc), but like?? theres def an underlying problem that i think is chronic pain and fatigue. like, doing simple tasks around the house leaves me pretty tired (like now for example, i washed the dishes, cleaned the stove and brushed the floor, and my back, arms and knees are KILLING me, and i feel pretty lightheaded). so yeah, i know this is most likely worsened by the fact that im sick and on my period (triple whammy lmao) but its been getting worse for over a month. like, i leave my house and stay out for like 3-4h doing errands and shit and i can barely walk home, having to use my cane AND my mum's support to walk around. it just kills me. plus sometimes my legs get so tired from pain and shit that my knees buckle and they hit the floor, overall making it worse. plus my fucking migraines-

okay, im SO SORRY for ranting about this, its turned into a vent about my pain and honestly you dont have to read it. the thing is that me and my mum were planning to go to the emergency room at some point when possible, but today she told me to call my regular doctor? i haven't done it yet since i want her to explain why to me.

one big problem regarding this is that i downgrade my symptoms to people, i worry about being a nuisance. however, i do this at the doctors too, and thats not good because they wont take me seriously unless i tell them everything (and maybe even exaggerate a little, everyone says to do it). if anyone has any tips for this lmk .

also! i quite like my cane but sometimes i believe that i could use some more support, and i really hurt my arms and shoulders using my cane. i was looking into crutches? im honestly not sure. anyways, if you have an opinion also lmk <3

i apologise for this absolute rant, but i think i needed it, thanks for reading if you've reached here

extra: i was reading about spoon theory and i definetly will be using!

[donghoonie-3]

soft thoughts for hoon 🥺

so i was trying to write but my hands are literally freezing and my fingers are all stiff so it got me thinking lol

so y’all had a little date, strolling through your city’s park looking at the Christmas lights strung up everywhere. finally sitting at a bench after making a lap around the park. you forgot your gloves but you didn’t realize just how cold your hands were till you stopped walking.

you know your solution lies with your boyfriend sitting next to you and the logical thing to do would be to hold his hands or putting yours in his jacket pocket, but your relationship thrives on y’all being menaces to each other.

with a sneaky smile, you eye hoon quickly to see he’s distracted looking at the Christmas lights. you take the opportunity to slide your hands under his scarf and against his warm af neck lmao he lets out the loudest yelp, people in the park looking over at you two. he starts swatting at your arms to try and save his neck from the iciness, but to no avail, you’re locked on. accepting his fate, you’re left with a grumpy and pouting hoon complaining and ranting to you while you just listen to him with an endearing smile on your face cuz he’s so cute <\3

until his mumblings slowly fade and his stance becomes rigid and you see his already rosy cheeks from the cold start to blush. giving him a questioning look he answers you with a sheepish smile. keeping to himself that the feeling of your hands around his neck, albeit more cold now, remind him of last night 🤭

(i’m sorry lmao idek what this is 💀)

LILY JSJSJS OMG <333 thank you so much oh my gosh 😭💖💖 no bc I love this concept sm psndosnd i KNEW smth sus was gonna happen with the hands on his neck 🤭 and damn </3 I wonder what happened the other night 😏 tbh I'd probably choke him lightly to tease him <//3

[cloudberry-ado]

(Good gawd I'm sorry this became a way longer reply than I thought it would be since I ended up rambling a lot (typical of me!) I'm so sorry 😭 if you're gonna read this post you're probably gonna be tortured so fair warning in advance before you delve into my little rant)

I wonder if you'll still see this if I reblog it...? Hopefully LOL- I'm new to Tumblr as I said so I'm just figuring out some things- it honestly is a little hard for me because well- the reason me and my best friend came together is because of Once-ler so he means even more to me. Its just a little sad that I see them go since we had a lot of memories together about him I've just accepted it for now but it's getting sort of lonely being so in love with a character and nobody is really there to understand that if ykyk. Maybe I'm just being sad because I haven't even talked to anyone for months on end and it's starting to drive me crazy lols.

Okay I had to draft this so many times because I was reading your links to the posts while trying to remember everything JSJSJ but yes I have thought or assumed that the fandom has changed a lot over the years so much- And hey I love dedicated people! Idk why but seeing people leave (me) so often without mostly limp reasons it always made it hard for me to make friends easily so to lose THOSE friends too...yeah. A bit of a twist to the knife but I've grown to accept it even if I valued them so much. Which is why i love onceler. His whole story in the movie was him being abandoned completely at the end? Honestly maybe that's why people loved him when he first came out since they probably related to the stinging pain of abandonment and how it's portrayed so quickly that it almost symbolises how friendships, success, anything that makes you feel great pass ever so quickly...haha I'm going on a tangent here sorry (that's what I get for studying English literature!). But yep another reason why I love him so much is because hey! He MAY be a fictional character and he MAY not be real (ugh that breaks my heart everytime realising that) but that means he cant exactly leave you right? What drawn me to the onceler fandom is that people make different versions and ocs of him and honestly? I loved that. Seeing everyone's comfort oc of onceler made me want to do the same. So, already being a huge lover of music as well as onceler being one of my biggest fandoms ever, I decided to make music for him. Regarding the fact that people may not be comfortable with what people do with their onceler ocs...hm. I'm a bit scared if Ive done something that may be offensive since I looked into many askblogs, active currently or not and they always gave me inspiration so I made songs about them. God I loved the truffula flu so much that I made a whole handful of songs about it (for each character like Swag, Rocky, entre, 72 etc etc). My boyfriend who is in the onceler fandom and is also recovering from a few things that happened recently helped me with the guitars (we HAD to include it as the main instrument - it is onceler themed songs after all!). If this is offensive though dont worry, we didn't really share out the songs to anyone or made it public it was just a fun thing we did together in our studio. But we will stop if it is. We made our own onceler rockstar au called "Thneed! Look Sharp!" (heavily inspired off Roxettes 1988 album "Roxette! Look Sharp!" since we were big pop rock fans as well. We made songs for it as well and I even wanted to create an askblog of it but I'm conflicted because yes, my fear is that something so precious and private I've made myself with someone close...I'm scared it'll get ruined by people who unintentionally make stuff about it that I'm uncomfortable of.

And yes I understand that the fandom has changed a lot throughout, and it has died and come back during the years throughout (I even made a song circling about this thought - "Come Back Before You Leave"). For me, I found it a bit hard when the fandom started going since well, I found something new, SOMEONE new. The Onceler. He was so much more than just a fictional character, he was almost like a real person to me from how attached I am to him. If I never discovered him I would've never discovered my best friend, a type friend I haven't ever had in a long long time. And that's a big thing for me. That's what makes him so special, he gave me someone that I never thought I could ever have. I love them so much. But ever since they seemed to have left the fandom things have been a bit hard to the point we don't even talk for a month despite me wanting to talk to them. Ever since my boyfriend (who is aka their best friend) had a few unfortunate things happen and it's gotten harder...i haven't heard much of them at all despite me thinking I could rely on them since that's what they promised. It really makes me feel the way how onceler probably had felt when his family abandoned him and lord it hurts. So here I am, clinging on to him still because well unfortunately hes becoming my only source of comfort left. I'm holding on to him just hoping something good will come out, that's why I'm here on Tumblr. Its all a bit depressing really so I'll stop talking now lol. Onceler is also very special for me for many other reasons (a few mentioned earlier as well) and regarding the fact that yes the fandom I'm sure has changed especially on age varietys. The people I knew were in the fandom personally were all teenagers (like me) so I made friends with many of them quickly. When I made a tumblr account and looked at the askblogs from 2012 the authors seemed to be all in their 20s. It was interesting, all the onceler ocs were taken very seriously and the art! I loved it all. Honestly actually when I first started the fandom the first person I new related to it you since yours was one of the most prominent (and so beautifully stunning ofc!) I loved your Audrey ocs and it's what made me get Tumblr myself. You were always cool af from the start and even more so when I realised you were still in the fandom. Really admire that dedication, seriously. Even so, yes I agree. I suppose I'm just bitter from how hard things have been personally but I know i can't force people to stay. Still it's nice seeing people happy, it makes me happy too so I'll let them be. I just hope everyone who has drawn distant from me in the short period of time is okay, including my best friend....

Well maybe it's because I'm so new to the fandom still lol when you've been here for years. Its risen so quickly last year that it trended but now it's very hard to find anyone who is still active unless I go to Tumblr. So here I am asking on ask blogs that are active lol including yours. You were the first one that actually replied though! Thank you for taking the time, honestly it's been an encouragement to me since it gave me some comfort really

All that said can I ask something weird? Maybe I shouldn't ask this on a reblog but...can we be friends? I am wanting to look for more friends (since my social life has been absolute shit but then again when is it not LOL) but ngl, your friendliness is contagious XD I've heard a bit about kilonova (author of idol-ler I think) who is one of my close friends (and mother figure even) and I've wanted to be friends with you ever since, but I was too scared to ask! All that aside though thanks for answering, not only it made me feel a lot better in general but it also gave me a huge insight on the fandom too!

Hey, this might be a long one (though I'm new to Tumblr so idk how this even works tbh) but I got into the onceler a year ago? I'm still morbidly in love with this guy and ngl maybe I'm just here because I'm feeling sad that all my friends have left him already and moved on- still I knew that you were in the onceler fandom since the start and honestly i admired you a lot for that for staying with him for so long jsjjs- I wanted to ask since the fandom comes and goes every so often, how was it like in 2012/2013? Everyone has told me that now is really tame compared to how wild the fandom was when the movie came out and hearing about it I really wish I was there to witness it (i mean I could've but I was only little kid lol). Another question though how do you feel about the onceler fandom being revived then dying a few months later? Ngl it makes me feel pretty sad for onceler for some reason lol it just makes me think about him rising up to fame and success then falling back being alone again and the cycle continues. Still I know some are still active which gives me comfort

Hello! Aw it's always bittersweet when a friend loses interest in a thing you were both into but sadly it's part of life :,) As long as there were no hard feelings then you can cherish the memories you made together.

And actually I've talked before about how the fandom was in the past vs how I feel in the present, here are a few posts that may interest you: [link] [link] [link] If you want specifics of things that occurred you could check out this post too: [link] and then here is a really good summary of how the fandom evolved in 2012: [link]

^And related to that last link, this is one of the reasons that the fandom seems to "die" every so often I guess? People get inspired and make onceler ocs and then they eventually get deoncelerized and used in other projects, and I don't think that's a bad thing at all. The Once-ler is a fictional character from a book/movie so I don't feel bad for him, it's the real people that are/were in the fandom who matter more and it's really cool and heartwarming to see people have fun and make friendships that last beyond their time in the fandom. So all in all I think it's okay as long as our friends are happy. We can't force someone to like something.

All that said though, I think our perceptions are a bit different currently because I feel like the fandom has been booming for the past year? 😂 Idk it seems really active to me at the moment!

[blueprint-han]

dawn dawn!! its been so long that ive visited your blog to the point where ive just seen your theme change :(( love the enha theme though 😌 your layout is vv pretty, as usual. how are you? i hope everything is going alright!

life has been very 🎢 for me 😭 but i think im settling down and starting anew. im getting my sheet back together lmao. what are your thoughts on cheese (the skz version)?

- ⛅️

Sjskskksksjs omg hi cloudy ! ✨💕 Snnsjsjs yes I agree given - taken is a masterpiece <3 thank you!! I'm doing great ! I hope you are too ☀️✨

Dkkdjdkd awh I hope everything's okay ! :( Remember to take care of yourself and stay hydrated and safe !! :(

Jsjsjs I love how you had to specify the skz version or else I'd actually tell you my opinion about the cheese that you eat 😂 but hmm, I actually quite like it! I was a little :/ at first about it but out of all the unveils I love it the most and it gives off the most skz vibe to me, so I'm really keeping my hopes on it. My only complaint with is it that the mv editor was very.... very high when he made the MV. My eyes fucking hurt watching that unveil even though I was sitting in broad daylight and we'll lit conditions — I think the jump cuts and the effects are a bit too overwhelming, but I actually really like the best the most out of all the unveils so far. Also unpopular opinion but hearing that blue cheese cheddar cheese parmesan cheese rap makes me cringe so bad I... <# I really hope they don't just use Felix for his deep voice and give 2minjeong one line collectively like they usually do and then just distribute the rest between 3 racha, since I really really think cheese has a lot of potential. I also really hope they pull a god's menu and that the cb isn't as disappointing as the concept photos are, because man the concept photos are just.... Bad sksjjs </3

[sunsmile-lou]

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[losersclublol]

today’s thought is stan with tics/tourette’s bc i have them too and my favorite hobby is projecting

(also i’m making this fem losers bc fuck you)

has bird call tics 200%

no bc they’d be spot on, they’d come out whenever she sees the bird the call belongs to

losers: “hey stan what bird is that one?” stan: “*aggressive whistling* nightingale”

i feel like she’d have coprolalia and it would pop out at the worst times

“miss uris, billie can do her own work but thank you for offering to help” “fuck off bitch, she’s stupid, sorry”

she’s get really frustrated bc of them, sometimes they mess up her work or knock something over a lot or make her hit herself. shits really annoying

losers would be great at comforting, they’d help clean up whatever fell over, get her ice packs and plasters(bandaids) y’know good friend stuff

h u g s

every time she hugs someone her tics hold on for dear life, the losers love it and always treasure it cause she’s not normally a hugger

they try and get to play games like uno as much as possible cause she always tics what cards she has or is going to put down

beep beep tic

richie hates it

i want her to have a hand chop tic from eddie, so she does

eddie will be ranting about richie or something dumb idk and she’ll do the wee hand chop

causing stan do also do it

“no because that was stupid and dangerous !*hand choppy* do you know how hurt you could’ve- stan stop mocking me”

“i’m not trying to dickwad *hits hand too hard* ow, that’s your fault”

“how is it my fault??”

richie unintentionally gives her soooo many tics. like they’ll be having lunch or something,

bill: “what have you got today, stan”

stan: “eddies mom *aggressive wink*. a sandwich”

when she has tic attacks richie knows how to get her calm the best

(shit is exhausting honestly they suck)

“you fucking bastard man *flips richie off*. sorry” “no it’s cool, there’s nothing to apologize for. you’re right”

every single time she has a drink that’s open at the top/not got a lid she spills it

the losers have to either hold her drinks for her or she needs a water bottle to put her drink into

they got her a sippy cup as a joke but it’s genuinely helpful jsjsjs

mike is on ‘she might fall so catch her lol’ and ‘she’s gonna hit bill in the legs again, god bills gonna eat shit, miiiiike help’ duty at all times

biting tic

not a full bite that will hurt but it’s a big enough bite to scare eddie

“SHE FUCKING BIT ME” “1. I OBVIOUSLY DIDNT MEAN TO AND 2. YOU WELL FUCKING DESERVED IT”

she has a wee kissing tic too, like a wee smooch, to the air mostly. but one time she kissed mike by accident, they both kinda stoped and malfunctioned for a while, then just went back to what they were originally doing

(the both of them were gay panicking for days on end tho bc stanlon rights)

has punched richie on multiple occasions

actually it’s every time they see each other

it never ends fjjdjdjd

but this post does !

[starojo]

okay lemme just rant about childe's voicelines hdhdjs

first of all this. i— he's a masochist omfg i mean i know he loves fighting and everything but DAMN

okay the next few ones,, i might have taken them out of context and just wanted to please my traveler (aether) x childe agenda so uh i apologize in advance ><

first, this one jsjskss he's basically saying "you and i, together, we can conquer anything" okay okay i know he said the harbingers BUT LISTEN DJSJSKS THAT'S BASICALLT THE SAME THING FIGHT ME

"and you, comrade, will be my witness!" ksjdks PLEASE BITCH WANTS TO SHOW OFF AND PROVE HIMSELF TO THE TRAVELER WKJSKS (and well ig prove himself to himself and like from his past but ye)

OKAY NOW LISTEN jsjsks i might be rlly being assuming in this one but that last three lines sjskks childe basically says to not say things such as "im on fire" bc he might get worried and thinking abt the traveler "burning" and turning to ash and being GONE is the last thing he wants jsjsjs

also childe rlly said "don't go yelling stupid things in battle" but also goes:

AJSHHSJS HE'S A CUTIE, IS HE NOT?

ahem now this THIS. i'd like to think that he means it like this: "one day, the world will lay beneath my feet, but until then you shall stay alive so you can be by my side to witness it." hhhhhhh im🥺

LASTLY MY MOST FAVOURITE 🤧🤧 PLEASE THIS LITERALLY MEANS, DONT @ ME THIS LITERALLY MEANS "when im with you, my worries mean nothing." I HAVE ASCENDED HE'S FCKIN WHIPPED FOR THE TRAVELER (id like to think the traveler is aether btw,, GAY PLS)

and also,, fun fact! childe said, in his letter to his sister tonia, that he would GLADLY leave his job as a fatui harbinger to join the traveler in his adventures sjdjjs and we're talking abt the same childe who swore an oath to serve the tsaritsa faithfully, and we all know how childe is one to never break his promises.

CONCLUSION: THE FATUI'S ELEVENTH HARBINGER AKA TARTAGLIA AKA CHILDE AKA AJAX IS VERY WHIPPED FOR TRAVELER (AETHER) JDHDJSJS

okay that's all, thank u for coming to my tedtalk :3

ps. credit to genshin impact wiki fandom for the screenshots

edit 210113 - apparently, there was a mistranslation from the chinese dub (which is the original dub/language of the game) of what teucer said when the traveler asks him if childe said anything bad about them in his letters to tonia. teucer says in the CN ver.: "没有啊。哥哥他还说有机会的话想要偶尔放下工作体验你们的旅行!" which translates to  "Not at all. Big brother also said that if he had the chance, he wants to occasionally put his job aside and experience your travels with you!" [ refer to this reddit post ]

now that i think about it, this actually makes much more sense and more in character of childe, as opposed to what i said above of him “gladly leaving the fatui and breaking his oath to the tsaritsa”. im sorry if i created some misunderstanding. still, the ship still stands, he still wants to join the traveler in their travels and put his job aside when he has the chance, just not the point that he’d actually leave or quit his job. which is understandable bc as much as childe hates his fellow harbingers and the way the fatui operates, he actually admires and respects the tsaritsa, which was also stated in one of his character stories.

[sonybees]

mutuals appreciation post!

i seriously CANNOT at all process this

literally i do not know how this even happened but i am so inexplicably grateful for every single one of you! i love all of you so so much!

i was maybe thinking about making a sleepover but school has been kicking my ass lately so i just decided on making a little mutuals appreciation post! to all my other mutuals, i love all of you so much and i literally want to smother all of you with hugs and kisses. i am so grateful for all of you. thank you.

this might be a little long so it’s under the cut! there might be a lot of mistakes snsjd

@lunaleonorah leo!!! you are an absolute blessing. i love your kindness and the amount of affection you give me literally makes me wanna break down and scream. in a good way of course sjjs. i love our conversations where we just talk about our days and all that. i wish we could always be friends and you can tell me anything you’d like. i love our friendship because we can talk to each other whenever we’d like and will always bring comfort to each other. i always look forward to having conversations with you everyday. ilysm and you deserve the world <3 all the love, pluto.

@gredmforge rory, my wife! i love talking to you about nonsense, it always makes my day and your fun and carefree personality always makes me smile. no doubt that we will be great friends in real life. the little asks you send in my inbox always make me laugh and i’m very excited for whatever future works you have. you always seemed so nice and sweet ever since i first interacted with you and i am so happy that i asked you where you got your memes because look what that got us to! shsjdjd. no but seriously, i love talking to you about our obsessions and just saying hello to each other. ilysm and i hope you always remember that! :) <3

@crookedhag my lovely eliz, i’m too lazy to make another one of those fancy scrolls that i did earlier but that doesn’t stop me from showin gmy appreciation for you. you are such a sweet and amazing person. you are also so talented and i am always so happy to see your name pop up on my notifications. you were always the first one to send me an ask for ask games and you always check in on me and i love you for that. i wish the very best in everything you do. you have great taste in music and i’m starting to think that you’re in every single fandom i don’t know jsjsj. but i love talking to you and ily! mwah! ◡̈

@oldschoolkiddo hero! the first time you ever interacted with me, i already knew that i would love having you around. you are such a fun person and all the tag games that you make and tag me in are always so fun! you are an independent person and i love that so much. you speak your mind and that is so powerful. you are so very sweet and your personality is so fun. i hope that you have many great days in the future and you can always talk to me whenever you need to. let me know if you want a distraction from anything or if you just want to rant, i will be here. ily!

@krasivayadarling my lovely ant! i am so very glad that i built up the courage to say hi to you when you made that post saying you wanted to be friends with new people. you are one of the best people i’ve ever met and you are so sweet, kind, talented, funny, and supportive. i am also so grateful for your support in my fics. you were my first ever supporter and i was really nervous for someone to read my works but you were so nice about it and i love that. i wish you all the best. ily, ant! sincerely, soap.

@whatthefuckimbisexual the loveliest persephone, you are such a bad bitch. JSJS NO BUT SRSLY ILYSM. you are such a fun person and i love how we can relate to each other a lot. i mean, staying up til 3 am and fuck aral pan yk? ejekdj. i really wish you the best in everything and i hope that we can interact more! you are truly one of the most fun and energetic people i’ve ever met and you are so very sweet and funny. thank you for being a great person! all the love <3

@falconxbarnes maddie! you add such a sweet and great person and when you reblog and like my posts, my heart fills with joy! your blog brings me so much comfort and i love our short little conversations. you remind me of going out at 5 am when the sun is almost out. the joy is always evident when that happens just like how i feel when i talk to you! i wish to eat pancit canton with you one day! i really wish you the best in everything and you deserve so many good things. mwah!

@amourtentiaa liane! you are literally so talented and it amazes me every time i read your works. you are so fun and chill and seeing your name always makes me happy! your blog page is filled with so much comfort in my opinion and our first conversation ever was so fun and you are so polite. you also really remind me of the night. i can’t explain why but like i said, you are chill and brings me a lot of comfort! i really love the way you interact with others as you are so kind. i hope you are doing well and always will feel well. ily, yannie!

@puntuations oh my gosh, ysa! you followed me first and i didn’t exactly understand why because you seemed too cool and mature for me djdj. but i am so glad you did and i am so grateful that you’re my friend. thank you for tagging me in dps related things! i really love that and it brings me so much joy. you were always so kind to me no matter what and you are so respectful. i appreciate you and your blog always makes me smile. thank you for being an amazing friend. ilysm, ysa. mwah!

@tofeeltaller joy! you bring me so much joy! sjdndjdn sorry, i had to. you are so so sweet and kind. i was always so scared to interact with dps blogs because they seemed intimidating but so nice at the same time (idk why i’m sorrydhjd), i thought y’all were too cool for me and i didn’t know how to approach you guys but after i got the courage to talk to you, i felt a lot more comfortable. you are so sweet and kind and you deserve so much more blessings. you truly are an amazing person and i hope that your days will get better and better. giving you so many warm hugs and kisses, mwah!

@lolremuslupin dkndkx omg you are so sweet! i don’t interact with you much but we do talk sometimes. i am also very glad that i decided to pm you to try and make new friends and you were so kind about it. you are such an amazing person and i love staying up at 3 am talking to you about random crap. i wish that your life will go well and that you are always safe! warm hugs!

@punkrific soaf, my twin! i really love talking to you and your energy is always so great. you are an amazing and fun person and having a twin like you always makes me feel like the luckiest ever. i am so so grateful to have you as a friend and your dashing personality always gets me. ilysm and i wish you the best! love, the ugly sofia <3

@freddieweasleyswife sweets! i’ve never met someone as sweet and kind as you are. you’re an amazing person and you deserve so much and you are so talented. i wish to write like you one day. my day is always better when I see your name in my notifications being friends with someone as amazing as you are is so great and i wosh to interact with you more. i miss talking to you and you’re always so kind and ready to comfort anyone. ilysm and you deserve the world. sincerely, sweetpea. <3

@sam-winchester-is-my-bitch rae! i love talking to you and seeing your pets! you are so kind, sweet and understanding and you really know how to make me smile. whenever i talk to you, it’s always so wholesome and nice and you give off so much good vibes. you really are like the color yellow to me, sunny, nice, but can be serious at times. but is always ready to cheer someone up. i wish you the best in everything and i hope that we can talk more! all the love <3

@daltonacademia kendi! i know you’re on a short hiatus at the moment but i just had to add you in here. i really hope that you are doing well and i hope you know that your writing is literally one of the best that i’ve ever read. you are so sweet and kind and you always have that little fun and sunny personality and i love talking to you so much. you are so respectful and you deserve so much. i’m sending you all the love and comfort. you are amazing and i hope you know that. stay safe, kendi! i really love that nicknamejsjs

@thatswhywilliamagedlikesourmilk dear! i am so glad that you followed my page and i am so so grateful that i’m friends with you. you are one of the best people ever and you are so so sweet. the most adorable person ever! talking to you feels like hugging a teddy bear and i am aware that that doesn’t make much sense but it just feels so comfy and brings me joy. i really hope that you’re doing well because you also deserve everything! sending you so many hugs <3 mwah!

@fredweasleyismyloverman alex, my dear! you are so kind and nice! i’m really glad i followed you. just a little fun fact, i actually found you through ant or @krasivayadarling . i was reading through some people who she gave ships to and i saw yours and i was like “oh my gosh, this person and i are literally the same.” and i went crazy because it looked almost exactly the same as my description hdjdjd. i’m actually not that sure if it went like that but that’s how i recalled it so i just always remember thatsbns. i literally relate to you so much and your shitposts give me life. you are so wise and amazing and i would love to talk to you more! ily, dear! mwah <3

@daisyyy2516 daze, dear! i am so happy that sab led ke to your page! literally, you are so damn talented and i just cannot i am always so amazed every time you show your works. you are so kind and sweet and such an icon. you bring me so much joy and everything you’ve ever said to me has always been something sweet and funny. ilysm and you deserve the world. i’d like if you dm’ed me once you’ve gotten your work displayed at some huge art exhibition. you are so amazing and i want you to know that. everything will be better. i appreciate you and i am so glad that you are in this world. i love you sm, daze. frd weasley loves you too. all the love and joy, soaf.

@sirlorelai lorie!! you are so nice and kind and sweet. i’m very glad that you weren’t angry at me spam reblogging your postsjsjd. i love our conversations and i wish we could talk more! you are such a kind and funny person and everything you’ve ever done has put a smile to my face. you are so fun and energetic and i love that. i hope that life is going well over there and that everything will be better if it isn’t at the moment. you deserve so much and ilysm, mwah!

@quadrupledeckertaco lorelei, dear! i miss talking to you! i really love our conversations and your soft but fierce personality is so great and it brings me so much joy. your writing is literally so amazing and like i said, i aspire to write like you one day. i miss you so much and i really hope that everything’s well. i wish you the best and sending you so much love, sofia. <3

and to all my other mutuals! thank you! i love all of you so much and interacting with all of you brings me so much joy. thank you for everything. have a great day everyone!

[withoutanaestheticc]

frrr it’s scary how ignorant they can get, and sad sometimes lmao.

and yess sis, many interesting ppl here, they just take everything so personal? siento que defienden a su fav más de lo que ellos se defienden a sí mismos, and i just hate all the gossip about their partners n shit, like go touch some pinche grass and stop caring about who x driver was with this day ughhh. i just save all that time and just accept the fact that they’re all pretty damn shitty (except lewis la verdad), and im just wasting my time defending them and their actions. the parasocial delirium is real and really embarrassing to watch tbh. como esa vez que lando said something about georges personality changing n shit but also said something about luisinha receiving threats and constant hate just for being with him literalmente and everyone ignored that and made a fuss over what he said about george like 💀💀💀💀.

sorry for all this rant jsjsj i don’t have people to talk about f1 like this, also thanks for following me it really made my day aaaaa, im not very active here but i think i might being c;

have a nice one 😁

EXACTLY. I think the main problem is all the weird devotion that goes into some ‘super fans’? Like I can like a driver and still be critical of them, to expect them to be better and do better than some of the more sub par showings they’ve had como solo porque son tu idolo, los chicos no son perfectos

i can like someone and still be a fan of the sport or a person and still think they’re fucking ridiculous. that being said- i rly only like lewis and a handful of others. (basically whoever was making the right decisions last year)

so those are my thoughts- feel free to message me or keep coming back on anon babe. 

[borathae]

Hey... about the drabbles? Could you do one where you're supposed to have a first date with one of them but either you or he gets in a minor accident but has to stay at the hospital overnight and the other person is extremely hurt and therefore angry bc their (hard to get) trust was "used to hurt them" but then they find out and it's fluffy? And could you maybe do it with yoongi bc atm I'm so soft for him like 🥺 Thank you, love your work❤ ~procrastinating anon

Pairing: Yoongi x Reader

Genre: Angst, Fluff 

Warnings: low self-esteem, self-hatred, heartbreak, descriptions of minor injuries nothing major I promise, so much pain and sadness; but I promise the ending is fluffy and healing

Wordcount: 2k (I’m so bAD AT KEEPING THINGS SHORT jsjsjs)

a/n: I apologize for the total angst fest in the beginning jsjsjsj. This was not how I actually planned it, but I let my feelings flow free soooo I’m sorry? 🤧😂 also lisTEN I relate so muCH I’m so goddamn soft for Yoongi lately, this man owns my heart 🥺😭 I hope you enjoy this cute little drabble and I love youuu!  💜

Today you were supposed to have your first date with a cute guy, who you had been chatting with for quite some time now. Two months and six days to be exact. Min Yoongi was his name. Min Yoongi was currently working as a music producer, he was the proud father of a brown toy poodle named Holly and had a soft spot for holding hands. His hair was dark, almost black with the ends twisted in soft locks. His eyes, the prettiest eyes you had ever seen, made you giddy just thinking about them. Oh how many hours you have spend getting lost in them when you looked through the many selcas he had sent you.

At first you didn’t even want to accept his chat-request, too scared made you the thought of talking to someone again feel. Quite honestly you had terribly bad luck in your relationships – lovers and friends alike – you got cheated on, got used and abandoned when you were no longer of use, got called ‘not lovable’ and worse things you don’t even want to think about anymore. So downloading “the best dating app on earth” – so your best friend called it – was the scariest thing you had done in forever, followed by pressing “accept” on Yoongi’s request to chat and actually answering his dorky but loveable first message.

Yoongi turned out to be the sweetest and most understanding guy – person actually – you had ever talked to. He listened to your worries and told you without a hint of hesitation that he would love it if things would developat a speed you were comfortable with and that you can take as much as time as you needed.

He agreed on your terms to not rush meeting in person, because god that would make you practically have a full-on panic attack. That was the first time you had honestly smiled in a long time, rereading his message over and over again, you weren’t able to believe your luck.

Time passed and with it your trust grew. You were chatting on a daily basis with him by now, wishing him a good morning and waiting excitedly for his good night phone calls at exactly ten twenty every night. You felt totally comfortable with him. You felt safe to be yourself around him, even if it was just through the phone. You felt sexy when you noticed the way his eyes travelled over your features when phones calls weren’t enough anymore and they turned into video calls. You felt loved and you were pretty sure the warm, fuzzy feeling in your chest every time you thought of him was love too.

So when Yoongi asked you if you wanted to meet up in person soon, your heart practically did somersaults in your chest. You had never typed “Yes!” faster in your life and judging by his quick answer neither had he.

The date was settled, two days from now you will meet each other in a little corner café. You couldn’t sleep in excitement, your mind was practically racing with scenarios of your date.

When the time finally came, you spend the entire day getting ready for your date, washing your hair, moisturizing every inch of your skin, picking out the perfect outfit. You showed up an hour earlier than arranged, just so you could mentally prepare yourself for finally seeing him in person. You were so excited.

One hour passed. Half an hour passed. You sent him a quick text asking if he was running late. He went online, typed and went offline before his message was able to reach you.

Two hours had passed since you came here. You quickly send Yoongi another message, asking him if he forgot about today.

Half an hour passed. No answer, no calls, no nothing.

Another thirty minutes pass and here you are still sitting at the corner café and waiting for him.  

Today should have been epic, exciting, remarkable, unforgettable. You were so sure it would bring a smile to your face every time you think about it. How could you be so wrong about that? You trusted him, you believed him when he told you he wouldn’t use you, you ate up his promises of support and comfort without as much as patting your stupid eyelashes.

You call him. It rings once then his voice mail tells you he isn’t available right now. He really rejected your call just like that.

So he just used you. You should blame him and be angry at him, but truth be told you weren’t. You were just hurt, so deeply hurt you have to look down your chest for a moment to see if you were actually bleeding. You honestly feel like you do.

Without any hesitation you block his number, block his social media profiles and delete all of his pictures. And just like that he is out of your life, your ability to trust is ruined for another year and your heart is broken.

Three days pass where your life consists of nothing more than crying yourself awake, forcing yourself to go to work and then continuing where you had left of in the morning when you go to sleep. You would have probably continued your daily routine if an unknown number hadn’t called you on the morning of your fourth day. The caller turns out to be Kim Seokjin, best friend of Yoongi who had stolen your number out of Yoongi’s notebook and who had made it his plan to explain everything.

Yoongi had gotten into an accident on the day of your date. The “idiot” – so Seokjin called him – walked into the busy street and got hit by a car because he was in the midst of typing out a message. He was lucky, nothing major happened. His right shoulder got dislocated and whilst getting thrown across the street he hit his head, resulting in a slight concussion. The entirety of guardian angels must have been with him on that day, so Seokjin said, the doctors told him such an accident results in death or life-changing injuries most of the times.  

As quickly as possible you are the hospital Yoongi is currently recovering at and find yourself standing in front of his room with shaking hands. Would it be awkward between the two of you after everything that had happened? What if you look at him and won’t feel the same warm love you had felt for him before?

A nurse opens the door before you can even knock, eyeing from head to toe before greeting you with a bright smile. It’s now or never. With held breath you enter the small hospital room.

“Yoongi?”you almost whisper, tiptoeing to his bed.

You have to take a deep breath when you finally take a look at him. All the feelings you wanted to push down and forget come rushing back into your heart, overwhelming you. You stumble back, holding onto the footboard of his bed.

He looks just as beautiful as he did through the phone screen, maybe even prettier if you were being honest. Even in his current asleep state he is able to take your breath away.  His eyes are closed, his lips slightly parted as steady breaths make his chest heave up and down. He looks so peaceful and calm, despite the white bandages covering the entire top part of his head and his right arm resting in a black sling.

Waking him up feels so cruel, but god, leaving him without having said hello feels so much worse. So you call his name loudly and gently tap his foot. He stirs, licking over his lips and swallows. His eyes flutter open. He mumbles your name, totally confused and still half-asleep.

“Hey”, yousay shyly.

“Hey, wow what a nice dream, these pain meds are awesome”, he murmurs, closing his eyes again.

“This isn’t a dream. I’m really here”, you chuckle.

“Seriously?” he gasps, surprisingly high-pitched for his normally deep voice. He sits up abruptly, hissing when hot pain rushes through his shoulder.

“Careful”, you rush to his side and help him sit up with a hand on his upper back, “you are still hurt.”

You sit down at the corner of his bed, careful not to hurt him.

“Yeah, for a second I nearly forgot about that”, he chuckles in pain, “how do you even know I am here? I thought you blocked me.”

You cringe at his words. So he noticed.

“Uhm, yeah I have. I, I mean had. I kind of had a slight mental breakdown when you ditched me at the café and I blocked you everywhere and deleted all of your pictures and basically locked your memory behind a big steel door in my mind and I swore to myself to never trust again.”

“Understandable”, Yoongi says. He takes your hand, squeezing it gently. You don’t even realise his gesture, too lost in rambling your thoughts out loud. It makes Yoongi tighten his hand around yours just all the more as a fond smile hushes over his face. You are so adorable when you rant like this and forget everything around you.

“But then your friend Seokjin called me”, you continue as if nothing happened, “and explained everything and now I feel like a total idiot for ever believing that you used me and at first I didn’t even want to come because I was too embarrassed, but then I started to miss you and-“, you pause to take a look at Yoongi.

A fond smile sits on his face, his eyes sparkle in adoration. Heat washes over your face as you start to blush vividly. You can’t even look into his eyes right now.

“I was rambling again. I’m so sorry. You probably think that I’m crazy right now”, you cringe, “sorry.”

“Actually I was thinking how cute you are right now”, Yoongi says softly, giving your hand another squeeze.

One you finally feel and one that sends in your body into complete overdrive. Your heart starts racing, your whole face becomes as red as a tomato, you stutter an answer but give up when you can’t even get out one basic word.

“I’m glad that you came”, he breathes.

You smile as an answer, squeezing his hand.

“It’s not an outfit I would normally wear nor is the location nice for a first date, but I hope that, I don’t know, it is still enough to give me a second chance?” he asks, almost scared.

“Of course it’s enough, it wasn’t your fault that you missed our date. I know that now”, you reassure him, making him smile, “besides I think you look cute in that hospital gown. I like the little pandas on the fabric”, you giggle, touching one of the dozens of animals on his shirt.

Right above his heart, you can feel it speed up underneath your fingertip at your gesture.

“Just wait until you see the back, because there is basically none.”

“Oh my god Yoongi”, you gasp at the mental picture of Yoongi sitting here with his butt all bared and naked.

“I’m wearing underwear don’t worry”, he laughs.

“What a relief”, you giggle, lowering your head in giddiness.

He pulls you closer to his body, making you scoot up the bed until he can wrap his arm around your middle comfortably and your back is rested against his side. You are careful not to put too much pressure on his body in order not to hurt him, despite your body wanting to basically sink into his arms. God finally being able to feel his touch, his warmth, his heartbeat is even better than you had imagined.

“Please stop me if this is too fast for you. And also I know you don’t really start a first date by kissing the other person, but-“, he inhales shakily, staring at your lips longingly, “-can I kiss you?”

“Yes please”, you whisper, leaning closer to his body.

His hand comes to rest on the back of your neck, your own cups his cheek. You are staring at each other for as long as possible, mesmerized by the other. Only when your lips brush over his and a gentle sigh leaves his throat do your eyes flutter closed and the feeling of his soft lips on yours drowns you in warmth.

[thirsty-x1]

I don’t know where to rant about this but hear me out am i the only one who totally feel annoyed how victon always mentioning abt seungwoo all the time, i know hes their leader and stuff ,but i never once i heard hotshot or nuest member mentioning sungwoon or minhyun what ur opinion abt this , totally sound childish but yeah i need to let out from my heart.

I’m an Alice so this rant actually gets on my nerves a little JSJSJ sorry, but I’ll try to reply as calm as I can. Disclaimer: I too got into Victon after Seungwoo debuted in X1, so I’m in the exact same position as the 100% of people that are having this mindset, yet I’ll be giving a long ass point of view.

It doesn’t annoy me at all. I don’t know how to transmit this if you don’t stan Victon, but they really are like a family so take it as if you were to have a close friend go away and people expect you to not talk about them anymore or to reserve your feelings to yourself. They miss their leader and their friend, they miss him because he too was their support, the person they would lean on, he is the same person to Victon that he is now to X1. Seungwoo isn’t merely “leader”, he’s a human being that forms relationships just like everyone else. How can anyone blame them for voicing out that they miss him or even mentioning him? How come that now Victon members have to shut up or watch how many times they mention Seungwoo? Ridiculous.

Why would people want them to cut ties and not mention each other anymore? Would people like that happening when X1 dissolves? If Victon weren’t mentioning Seungwoo at all people would be complaining as well, saying shit like “oh so they think they got this on their own” and blah, blah, blah. Stop promoting cold culture, or indifference, or whatever, that’s what I’m trying to say. 

Seungwoo belongs to both VICTON and X1, the same way that Seungyoun is also in UNIQ and Wooseok in UP10TION. I just want to know why, why is it so bothersome to people that Victon mentions Seungwoo because right there it’s the core of the thing, y’know? Why does it bother you, for example, it can’t be merely because “other groups don’t do it”, that’s a pretty empty argument.

And regarding what you said about other groups and stuff, I love hotshot and nu’est so don’t take this the wrong way but they aren’t exactly the most affectionate groups out there AND this is something I always hate in the kpop community: stop. comparing. groups. All groups are different, all groups go through different shit and they deal with that in different ways, so comparing is really just stupid and lame not the way.

I think I’ll cut this here because I feel like this wasn’t calm AT ALL and I don’t want to sound aggressive or mean :( It just makes me sad that people be trying to monopolize Seungwoo in one group/fandom when he really just wants to make everyone feel like a family :( I’ve seen this fight go off on Twitter and I thought it was extremely silly and I think the same now.

Just ask yourself why do you find it so annoying because I doubt that it’s for Seungwoo’s sake or taking into consideration his happiness. 

EDIT: adding this ask from an anon for more insight in the hotshot/nuest part:

"To that anon complaining about Victon mentioning Seungwoo - Nu’est and Hot Shot were FORCED to not mention their members who were in Wanna One (and vice versa for Minhyun and Sungwoon) by the absolutely FOUL reactions from Wannables when they did, claiming they were just trying to climb up on their friends fame. @ Oneits, please don’t become the next Wannables. The members of Victon are allowed to talk about their leader."

[itsbetterthananal]

so. i have this friend right. and i love him so much we've gotten vv close even though i havent known him for long at all, a bit over a month. and he comes to me a lot when he's sad and i do too- we're both not in the Ideal mental state health-wise. but he always knows exactly what to say to me but i feel like what i say is never enough and he told me he wanted to take a break from social media in general and ofc i encouraged him and i miss him jsjsjs sorry for ranting when i start i never stop

its no problem!! thats very sweet i hope you can talk to him again soon

[ndksicksxijsksidis]

people have unfollowed since i started ranting about all this jsjsjs sorrY i know it’s annoying but this is the only place i feel safe ranting about it it’s the only social media i have that i am 99% certain my dad won’t be able to get hold of.